Zero Energy Abyss

In the middle of the night awoken, with an immediate feeling of loneliness. A very strong feeling of loneliness, like I am only being in existence in this world. Imagine that you are in the vastness of space with no planet around for thousands of light years. A vast blackness surrounds your every existence. An vast emptiness of no energy, no light, no matter. My existence fades to nothing because of my absence in the collective conscious of all living beings. Wading in the realm of the forgotten. Floating in vast void of space.
There is one object that is there, a matt black featureless giant hand. Like a claw it is the size of myself much like it was designed for me specifically. It is my imprisonment. It moves with a slow steady un-alarming pace. As it grasps me its effects of suffocating oppression are felt unequally. It has infinite patience to await for my visit. Not bound by space and time it does not exist within the realm of time. It is absent of malice, anger, sadness, or greed. Is is not happy to do so. It merely is. It is absent of any human emotion that we as a species tend to project onto an object. Its sole purpose is to drain the life energy from you. It does that with efficiency and purpose of its value in existence. Like water pouring out of a dam I can feel my life energy being sapped away, 100, 10, 1, 0.1, 0.01, 0.001... There is the absence of conservation of life energy here. It is an energy pit in which energy is dissipated and never reclaimed. So effective is it to focus my attention on it only it. For myself to focus on anything else would cause the existence of material world to come into existence. And its existence would fade within its own void. Everything in life is relative. Except this is absolute within the absolute scale of all existence. It is anti-energy. As in the material world there is matter and anti-matter. When the matter and anti-matter collide they annihilate into nothing with a little amount of energy given off. This is the existence of anti-energy in opposite of the energy that permeates this world and the life energy that animates all living things. Not to posit that this is a scientific aspect but to understand what it is.
It is Zero Energy the reference point of life and the existence of this world.
It is not my enemy, it is it is something I know all to well. I must face it as well as I wish to face it. For it is demand put on myself to absolve myself of it. I and only I can have the initiative to divert its existence. Morning comes and the life giving energy of the sun light is a welcome threshold. It is the light that gives life. There is dawn of a new day to give rise to the purpose of existence in life. The day is a placeholder for the purpose of life and its existence. I am here to allocate that placeholder.
It is there, avoided for now temporarily, but its patience is infinite and it waits. I will be ready but I do not want to go.
Do you know what this is? Have you experienced it? I imagine that all of us at one point and time have. Therefore, I wish to bring it into the collective consciousness. To bring it into the collective consciousness is to give it existence. To give it an energy of existence to fill its void. In an effort to annihilate it.